FINALLY LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF AGAIN

Before I start I just want to point out that this will be VERY different from my normal posts and it is going to be a lengthy one, so if you’re not into the long wordy blog posts then I’m afraid this one isn’t for you. However, if you’d like a nose into my little life then please do read on. 🙂

I see my little blog as somewhere I can come and write about whatever I want, whenever I want, kind of like a diary I guess but with a lot more pictures. Whether it be my current favourite moisturiser or the stupid amount of candles I just bought on my most recent shopping trip.
But there is also a lot of things that people don’t know about me.

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Two of my favourite mottos that I live by are:
Everything happens for a reason” & “Think positive & positive things will happen“.
I have always been someone who believes in being positive and whatever happens you need to remember to keep smiling hence my little header up there ^^. That doesn’t mean I don’t have my off days though, those days where I can’t even bring myself to get out of bed because I have woken up in the weirdest mood and no matter what I do I just can’t seem to shake it off. 

I’m going to let you in on a few little secrets of mine that only very few people know.
Ever since I started High School I was never that someone who “fitted in” with the rest of the group. I was the girl who had big bushy eyebrows and sometimes got that little bit of hair in-between them which gave me a mono-brow, the girl who had darker leg hair than everyone else in PE lessons but didn’t shave them because I had never been shown how to. 

In my last year of High School I put a picture of myself up on my Facebook page with a little bit of makeup on and this boy who was in the same Science class as me who could just about remember my name commented on it saying “you’re getting better”, which basically meant because I had started to wear some makeup and do my hair a bit nicer my looks were suddenly “getting better”. Now to me this wasn’t a confidence booster, this was a total confidence destroyer. I couldn’t quite believe that someone was actually commenting on my picture in this way, it was like someone was saying “you look better, but not that much better”.
This was almost six years ago and I can clearly remember taking that picture in my bedroom mirror and feeling pretty beautiful, only to then receive a comment like that on it. 

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It’s little things like this that have completely changed the way I see myself and others. I like to believe that I am a very caring and loving person, even to those who probably don’t deserve my kindness but that’s just something I physically can’t change about myself.
In a weird way that comment taught me to love myself a lot more, to feel beautiful about myself and to completely discard any comment anyone would make about my looks. No one in this world should ever feel they have the right to comment on someone else’s appearance, everyone is beautiful in their own way. Unfortunately some people will always think they have the right to criticise your looks and tell you about it, just to make you feel worthless.
But this doesn’t mean you are! For a long time I thought I was ugly, fat, hairy and just plain horrid. It was around 3 years ago I started to believe I was beautiful, I finally learnt to love myself again and now I like to think I have quite a thick skin when it comes to other people’s opinions. 

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This is also why I like to be positive and not dwell on things. The more positive you are the more happier you will be, I promise it’s not a typical cliché this does actually work.
Also going back to one of my life mottos “Everything happens for a reason“, if I didn’t receive that comment on Facebook or get called out for having hairy legs and a few hairs between my brows then I truly believe I wouldn’t have the spirit and personality I do today. There is not one single person that I talk to from High School now, because I have made real and true friends along the way and I wouldn’t change it or them for the world. 🙂

I hope you have the best day & be happy.
Lots of love, Xandra Rose 🙂

16 thoughts on “FINALLY LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF AGAIN

  1. 1weekmary says:

    I love this post! I 100% agree with you, especially about the fact that if those things hadn’t happened to you, you wouldn’t be where you are now. I went through similar experiences in high school, and although they were painful at the time and quite hard to deal with at times, if I hadn’t gone through them, I wouldn’t be where I am today; with this mindset. Positivity IS the way forward and I wish more people would see that. I enjoyed reading this post, it’s been really nice getting to know you & I’d love to see more posts like this (maybe that’s just me being nosy lol) but I love reading about honest experiences, and genuinely loved this post. By the way, I promise you I’m not just saying this, you’re really beautiful girl! Lots of love xxxx

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    • Xandra Rose says:

      You are actually the best person in the world!! Thank you so much for your kind words! It’s such a shame so many people go through things like this in school, including you and me but like you say if these things hadn’t of happened we wouldn’t be where we are today and acting the way we are. I’m so glad you enjoyed it, I really enjoyed writing it and I’d love to do more of them so you can find out more about me! ☺️ thank you again so much 💗💗xxo

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  2. A Little Slice of Jamie says:

    I relate to you so. much. Like, this is insane!! My favorite quote has been “everything happens for a reason” for YEARS, and I will stand by that forever. Good things have come out of so many of the crappy things that have happened in my life. I don’t talk to very many of the same people from High School because they just were not true friends who truly cared about my happiness. I have found what true friends are like, and I will not accept less, because I am worth more than that. Thank you for sharing this. ❤ You are beautiful! Let me know if you ever want to chat. 🙂 Also, I actually have an entire post about "everything happens for a reason" on my blog. It is one of the first ones I wrote actually! I will stop babbling now. Have a fantastic day 🙂

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    • Xandra Rose says:

      Thank you so much for your comment and sharing your experiences too! I totally agree with that quote and I will always stand by it as well, no matter what happens. You deserve so much more and you’re right, you should NOT accept any less. You are beautiful and you are worthy of so much more! Again thank you for your comment and your support, if you ever want to chat I am always here too x

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    • Xandra Rose says:

      Thank you so much for your comment and support, it really does mean the world. Unfortunately like you say teen years are difficult, I’m just glad those people are well and truly in the past now x

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  3. thebeautyanalystblog says:

    Teenagers can be so so horrid Twinnie, I’m sure they were all just jealous of how stunning you are! I was always known as the fat one at school so can completely relate to how it feels to receive nasty comments! So glad you’ve learned to love yourself as you’re amazing! xxxx

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